2009 has been a year of great change for me. Not change enough that will allow me to pour out my heart on my blog (yes I know some people do – I am not some people……although the initials are frighteningly similar).
If I look back to the Pencil that was in January and the Pencil that is now – I am pleasantly surprised. I am sharper now, more colourful and I can stand up really well on my own. I went through a bit of a sharpening mid-year and believe me, it hurt like hell. But, here I am all pointy and new. Fresh and ready to write.
There were the physical changes
- My hair is dare I say, quite blonde now. Ok not blonde per se but it has blonde in it (and in dodgy light some lovely, olive green streaks)
- The chip in my front tooth has miraculously disappeared. I call it a miracle. Mr Pencil calls it thousands of dollars of dental work.
- I have lost 5 kilos and I have decided not to look for them. Ever. At all
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And the work changes
- This was my area of greatest change – it was the year I became The Sharpest Pencil (last year this time I was a piece of plasticine)
- I left a very unhealthy work environment for Twitter. Well okay, I did not leave for Twitter but when I did leave (with half my soul still residing in the job) Twitter carried me on its little, blue wings and got me to my next station
- I found great work, work that I love and that fulfils me and pays me not very much at all.
And of course the relationship changes
- Mr Pencil, Little Pencil and Fluffy Pencil know how much I love him – they know that this love grows daily, if not hourly and they also know that this is not my chosen forum to express my deepest emotions so let’s leave them out of this one. Let’s focus on you.
- I have met the most amazing people this year – many of them through Twitter. There were some pretty dark times this year and you tweeps (yes you!) kept me going and laughing. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart
- I met an alien who lives in a spaceship who has brought oxygen and light from her planet to my planet and given me more than I could ever have asked for. And I promise I did very few drugs this year but that really happened.
I grew, I stopped worrying so much about, well about everything and although at times I hated this year (like really hated it with the force of a sledgehammer cracking an egg) I think I am glad for the year that was 2009.
I am quite sure next year I will still worry, for worry is in the fibre of my lead and I am not so naive as to believe there will not be many challenges (hey we are renovating this Pencil Case – therein lies an entire can of challenges just of the physical type). My heart will still be over sensitive and my emotions will still be strong, my fears will still be real and I hope my dreams will still be tangible. I will still be The Sharpest Pencil and I hope to share the journey on this blog and with you all.
How was your 2009? Did you grown and learn from it or will you just be shoving this year under a carpet and hoping it never trips you up?
Well done – sounds like a good year.
I too am glad for the year that was 2009. My year was one of settling down, leaving my unfettered, single, party-going life behind, losing some of my ambitions for new ones and now growing a new life within me.
What a gorgeous and touching summary of 2009.
My 2009 was pretty tough, but had some redeeming features – one of which was making a magnificent new friend.
Keep Sharpening, Pencil. I see great things for you in 2010.
xxx
What a fabulous, fabulous post. Good for you Sharpest Pencil. I’ve only “known” you a couple of short months, but I’ve always thought you a very positive, witty and inspirational person.
You’ve brightened up my Twitter world!
Look forward to reading more in 2010! x
Great post, wish you great success with your blog , I am interested in the alien? wold you care tell us more about it, love ooxx
Beautiful post SP!
I wish you and the rest of your Pencil clan a Blastful 2010.
Lotsa love,
Brenda
Well, for someone who doesn’t pour their heart out, this was a very moving piece of writing. Beautiful.
I too am glad for the year that was 2009, and am looking forward to 2010 and all it brings.
Happy New Year. x
Wonderful post, SP…
My year was a bit of a toughie but, like you, I found a wonderful new support system that has made me laugh so much and so often and reminded me of how beautiful female friendship can be. I couldn’t have made it through 2009 without my circle of friends and without my gorgeous online Twitter and MM community.
2010 will be a cracker…
What an amazing year..my year was learnt from but the lessons are carved so deeply i can probably do with shoving it under the carpet and not looking at it again. Ever. except in film trailer style. Great Post 🙂
Happy New Year to you Sharpest Pencil, and to Kerri and Nomie and Jodie and Wollywally!
Lovely post 🙂
2009 has been for me:
– Gaining the 5 kilos you lost and knowing EXACTLY where they went!
– Spending more time with friends
– Being mostly happy single
– Sharing some beautiful times with family
– Learning
Hoping 2010 will be:
– Graduating
– Moving
– Travelling
– Loving
Apart from the alien encounter the nature of my 2009 sounds similar to yours. There are parts of the year of which I am proud and others which were unimaginably painful. I intend to be the strongest I can be in 2010 both physically and mentally and emotionally. I’m going to train for a half marathon and I’m going to continue to find avenues to pursue my love of writing. And I’m adding you to my blogroll.
There is a lot of unwritten pain in this post SP. Having come out of the other end of a truly horrible 5 years, I understand from where you write. I am hoping that there will be some closure & equilibrium next year for you. Your words & your friendship mean a lot to me.
What a great summation of 2009. I agree so much about not knowing whether to bid this year good riddance or look back fondly. Maybe both. Xxxx
Great post, SP ! I think a lot of us have had a shitty year. I never want to see 2009 again. Oh, hang on , I won’t will I ? Hope 2010 points all of us in a better direction. Happy New Year !
Sp, this is a post which comes from the heart with so much emotion. Thankyou for sharing! I too am glad to see the back of 2009, and look forward to 2010 to find what else the world has to offer! It has been such a pleasure getting to know you and all my lovely tweeps this year, I found support in one of the most unlikely places! I am so excited for your weight loss and am proud to say I didn’t find any of those kilos! You ms pencil are a beautiful person for what little of you I know! And for that I thanku! I look forward to hearing o more adventures in 2010
Great post SP. For the most part 2009 was a cruddy year at Casa Del Waffler, but I reunited with some old friends and discovered Twitter, blogging and my old love of art, so all has not been lost. I have high hopes for 2010, and I look forward to sharing many more happy hours of tweeting with you and the gang 🙂 xx